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I can’t do it.

I can’t give up the Pond.  I can’t give up the magic and the seven years of stories, tales and confessions I put into it.


But at the same time, I can’t go back to the way things were.  I can’t post photos of Danielle in her wedding dress or talk about Ben and the dogs.  I can’t post pictures of me looking like a moron with Danielle and Bryan.  (See above). My biggest fear is this crazy stalker would find my family and hurt them.  Plus, it was odd when I’d go somewhere and people I didn’t know would ask me about my stories, the dogs or something they’d read about on my blog.

Monday, when I was tutoring, one of the little boys asked me when I was going to publish his story.  He still thinks I’m a magazine editor and is convinced that J.K. Rowling is going to fly down and tell him how brilliant he is and win a million dollars.  Yesterday, I was wondering around thinking, and realized the Pond is a perfect place.  Not only can I share my own children’s stories and use it as the public site to promote my books since I’m still under contract with Turquoise Morning Press and Inkspell, but I can put up writing activities and fun things my kids say, and print their own work.  So many kids hate writing because teachers make it a chore and obligation to pass ridiculous tests.  They lose the joy of stories and of reading.  This little boy, in the time we’ve been together, has not only started writing more than three sentences on his own, but is having fun with it.  A little girl that told me on day one liked math and wanted to be a veterinarian and only needed to know enough to write on her patients’ charts is now writing stories about her dog that take over the entire whiteboard so she’s writing around the edges and between sentences in different colors.

That’s what the Pond can be.  The Pond can be a place of joy, a place where writing is fun and stories are magical and don’t have seven layers of meaning and context.  The Pond can be a place where you write because it’s fun and not because you have another test, another hoop to jump through.

This place, however, will be the place I tell my stories, post pictures of my family and talk about all the things I’d never tell a person on the street corner.  It is the place I can be truly free, without having to worry if I sound all right and don’t have a booger on my shirt.  That used to be the Pond.  But like all children learn eventually, I learned the hard way that you can’t invite everyone home to your room with you. One child will eventually be cruel, and you’ll never want to bring anyone home again.

In this tree fort, there’s a password.  Luckily, ya’ll all know it.


Stay tuned, Invisible Subjects!  The Hill Country Princess will be back with a story next week– she’ll be moving all weekend! 

24 thoughts on “Thinking

  1. This was beautiful, am really sorry about the weirdos that have attached themselves to your other place. I find that really odd, thankfully it hasn’t happened to me, but I always think on it. I like your idea of using the different blogs for different things, I think that’s perfect!! And I’m glad you haven’t gone away completely!! *hugs*

  2. I think that your “Pond” represents a beautiful and magnificent body of work. I had thought it a shame to let it go. I think it’s wise though to keep your personal and work lives separate however. That is probably the best thing. Good luck on the move! I hope it all goes well! xxoo

  3. Yes but don’t forget that the pond was just a place. OK ,as you have just written, a very special place but at the end of the day what made it so special was you and yours and I know that because of this your new home will be just as welcoming and full of love.

  4. Sorry to read about the problems with the other blogsite…I often wonder about Facebook and all those things everyone uses and repercussions we aren’t even aware of yet. Some of it is frightening…you’re smart to be cautious.
    Your new home will be perfect, don’t worry. And all your Pond friends will be right here with you!

  5. I’ve been having trouble commenting today. Not sure if it’s me or not, but I’ll try again! You’re amazingly brave and spirited and I am glad you have found purposes for both blogs that are from your heart. I’ll always tune in.

  6. Eventually you will determine how much you can publish and still feel comfortable. And at least you can still tell us your stories, even if you can’t show us all of the pictures you’d like to share.

  7. That sounds like a good plan. Keep the pond impersonal…and use this private site for the rest. I’m sorry you’ve had to go through this stress and inconvenience. But I’m happy you’ve found a way to make it work :)

  8. I’m so glad to see you again in this beautiful new blog. Since you’ll post also in the Pond (as you say, in impersonal way), I’ll follow with great pleasure both blogs.
    I hope you are well, greetings from Turin!

  9. I’m so very glad that you’re not letting the actions of one man kill your spirit for writing, hun. I have always loved your corner of the blog world and your wild imagination and beautiful way of storytelling. You are so incredibly awesome at what you do and I would never want anyone to take that away from you.

  10. I’m sorry this has been so difficult. I think you are right to be cautious. I love that you want to inspire kids. I do have to say though that most teachers don’t try to make writing a chore…ridiculous standardized tests that teachers are forced to teach to are what makes it a chore.
    For some reason this new site isn’t updating in my blog roll which is why I’ve missed a couple of posts. Sorry about that. Off to figure out why. :)

  11. I hope you are having a good move, dear Duckie! I have not moved since 1989, and that’s fine with me! Dan’s redoing one room now, and the moving stuff around involved there is enough to make me want to stay put for another 24 years!

    xoxo Marjie

  12. Sounds like a wonderful idea for the kids to have a place at the Duck Pond. Seven years is a long time and I know that you put so much of yourself into that blog. Your new blog is awesome and I am loving reading about your new adventures. Sure pray that all is going well with you and your family!

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